Today I am trying to get a couple of things ready before we start to distribute some of the articles we have been writing, including the last mile.

My husband doesn’t feel well today, so some of my questions will have to wait. I have tried to trouble shoot, but I don’t want to do much with out clarification. And it gave me time to catch up on the house work, which always seems to be there waiting for me to delegate some of my time to it. Sometimes I feel like I am spread thin, doing the laundry, cleaning the living room, changing the cat litter, taking out the garbage, folding the clothes, making the bed, sweeping and mopping, wiping down the kitchen, grocery shopping, paying bills, balancing money for bills, working a second job, putting as much time as I can into the business, being a wife, being a mother, trying to find a moment to be an aunt, a sister, daughter and a friend. And trying to just have a moment for me. I have sacrificed alot of me, my writing and picture taking for this dream. Knowing that if I put in the time now, I will eventually have all the free time to spend with my kids, husband, family and for myself. That if I just try to stay balanced and sane I will soon be able to take amazing pictures from all over the world, I will soon be able to write while I am sitting on a beach……..

I try to envision it as much as I can. Even when I walk across the carpet I try to imagine it is sand. In the mornings I like to sit on the porch and pretend I can smell the air from the ocean. I get photos (that I keep in a folder on my desk top) that I look through to remind me of where I am going to travel to, what I am going to experience, the camera I am going to have. It makes it easier to deal with the feelings that I feel daily, as I push forward, tired!